Image: Maldives, island paradise, by daniel pozo
Sometimes it seems that ripples from the future influence the present.
I once had a vivid lucid dream where I walked through a particular tree. Years later I got a job in a building very close to that tree, and my office is straight through that particular tree in the exact direction I walked in the dream. Years after I took the job in that office, I went away on vacation to Hawaii with someone I thought I would marry. When I returned, that tree was cut down. Now I walk through that tree every day on the way to lunch and back.
There is no way I or anyone else could have known, years before, where I would work, where my office would be or that this tree would be cut down due to disease.
Another strange coincidence has now attached itself to that dream, as if what I call “a quantum strange loop” is acting as a bridge between waking and sleeping, life and death.
I dedicated a blog post about my strange tree dream on Oct 21st to a friend of mine who killed herself. When a friend told me she’d committed suicide, I did not wish to know the manner. I assumed until yesterday that she took her life with a gun, but I just found out yesterday Jan 27, 2010, that she lept to her death.
Coincidence or Precognition?
On July 25, 2009, three months before she died, I posted a song called “What Have I Done” about leaping. (Click the link for the lyrics.) I was thinking of myself when I wrote it, that love requires a leap of faith. I was expressing a fear of commitment that has kept me single my entire life. Now the song has a new meaning. I don’t think she ever heard it, but if she did, “What have I done” becomes even more self-referential.
My rational mind tells me, as my friend once seemed to do, “ignore conspiracy theories” and “don’t be superstitious”. I assume my song and the method of my friend’s death are just strange coincidence.
Magical thinking–though we may fight it–is a part of each of us. If I help create the world by what I choose to see, my brain says to me, I should fill my thoughts and time with positive things, like nice vacations in the Maldives or things nice equally.